Well, so far in Moose Jaw, i'm loving it here, i'm so grateful that my uncle was nice enough to come and get me from my job...phew...and I appriciate everything they've done for me man, like really. I got the job in Montreal too, so that's what I'm really happy about even tho im moving further away from Olds, I dont care anymore, I have to go where the jobs are. My mom and grandmother weren't that supportive of the whole idea of me moving again to montreal, although I really see their point. I have to have extra money saved up, but u know what let's face it, this job is the one I've wanted even before Saskatchewan, and i want to take anything i can get here. I mean sure I would rather stay here in this area i'd be easier but i have to move on w/ my life sooner or later. honestly. I have about 500 bucks in the bank, enough to get me to montreal. I have to save the rest incase the worse thing that could happen like my mother said, cuz they can't bail me out anymore, and i didn't even expect them too, it's my life, and i'll do what i want well technically what i need to do. I want a job in a barn. I got one, that's my goal so far, work for afew years then go to college again, im in no rush anyways. they don't understand me. well the horse business. U have to start at the bottom, guaranteed even if i went to olds this year, i wouldn't make it becuz you need the experience. I need the experience on the job, or im screwed. Before I even think about going into the breeding business you have to establish yourself in the horse business first. that's what i want them to understand plus, i have a loan i have to pay back VERY VERY soon, and i need anything i can get, im not falling behind on payments, plus living on the premises will help me out alot more than they think becuz then i can pay off my loan during the year and not have to worry about my rent etc. and it makes it easier to get things done. im at square one for my driver's licence again...nothing, i'll have to do it in montreal now, i guess becuz my stupid birth certificate hasn't come in yet. so i see this as a positive thing here. i know im on my own, but how the hell am i supposed to learn if i dont do it? I dont think the same thing can happen that did here. they have many ppl going thru there and i dont think they'd ruin they're reputation like that. but like my mom said i ahve to be careful, stand up for myself, so i will, this is a learning experience and im going to be great. I'm going to make it there, i know i will. I'm giong to work hard, and please them. Of course im going to be new, but cmon, u learn everyday, and i have to get more experience under my belt befor ei can even get into the business i want to be in. I'll have to explain that to mom and nanny/papa when i get home for the weekend. I know where they are coming from they just want me to be successful, and i understand that, I dont really know what i would do w/ out them, but i hae to to do what i want to do, so that's the way im going to do it. I have to get out in the world sooner or later, and if i know you are close by, im giong to slack off, i know that, i know myself, but if i know hey, im really on my own here, then i'll be forced to grow up and get on w/ my career. This is my dream. Working w/ horses, cleaning their shit, riding, i dont want to be the center of attention, i want to be in the backround help run things, that stuff, that's all i really want out of this. is to be able to work and teach ppl about horses. taht's it. Olds college was just a dream that i can't reach right now, i have to go thru this first, it'll better prepare me for when i do want to settle on my own and run a barn myself. im not ready for it yet. that's my story...phewwww...that was long...haha Other than that , im extremely happy rightnow, but im not getting my hopes up because well u know lol u just can't. haha
Well, Laurel: man i luv ya and thank you so much, it meant alot to me for you to do that, i didn't even expect u to do that much...THank you and im glad i gotcha man, i dont know what i'd do! Hope your knee is coming thru and you are doing great, n of course your ponies ;) I'm doing great now as you can see, it's not the way that looks easy but hey what is right? I'll call you in montreal when i get there give you to lo' down, finish my drivers license and stuff. get on track again. :) Hope everythings good, say hey to ur mom and dad! and of course the animals lol ;)
Hope to talk to ya soon man! luv ya and miss ya tonz!!!! Soon chica i'll be visiting...lol soon
Well, Laurel: man i luv ya and thank you so much, it meant alot to me for you to do that, i didn't even expect u to do that much...THank you and im glad i gotcha man, i dont know what i'd do! Hope your knee is coming thru and you are doing great, n of course your ponies ;) I'm doing great now as you can see, it's not the way that looks easy but hey what is right? I'll call you in montreal when i get there give you to lo' down, finish my drivers license and stuff. get on track again. :) Hope everythings good, say hey to ur mom and dad! and of course the animals lol ;)
Hope to talk to ya soon man! luv ya and miss ya tonz!!!! Soon chica i'll be visiting...lol soon
Jess: hey gurl that's pretty much the scoop if you've just read this...haha or ur blogsite...hah hope to see you soon, and i'll get intouch w/ u if you gave me ur number lol geez. i'll let you know how everything is in montreal and hope you are doing well ! :D
Miss ya tonz and luv ya man!
BEhave eh? lol jk
Luv you'z all! have a good one.
~*megz*~
Miss ya tonz and luv ya man!
BEhave eh? lol jk
Luv you'z all! have a good one.
~*megz*~